On Monday, January 12, 2009, Oprah hosted a webcast on weight loss. Her guest was Bob Green. Bob wanted everyone to answer five important questions to get to the root of weight gain for individuals. In order to get the real solution to the problem, you have to be brutally honest with yourself. As I think right now, I don't like looking in the "mirror". I don't like what I see about myself. I am not happy with myself at all. I hate looking in the mirror. It forces me to see the truth. Here are Bob's five questions and my answers:
1. What are you really hungry for?
I am hungry for love, affection, acceptance, and attention from the people that I love and/or respect.
2. Why are you overweight?
I am overweight because I do not care about myself enough to do something about my problem. It is easier to give up and eat the cookies, ice cream, and pie. I give up on myself to quickly. I feel like I am going to fail anyway so what's the point in trying to lose weight.
3. Why have you been unable to maintain weight loss in the past?
I deter from my diet and nutrition plan. I go back to my old habits.
4. What in your life is not working?
My finances, my business, my job, my relationships, are all not working. Even trying to get my 3 year old potty trained is not working out.
5. Why do you want to lose weight?
I think being a smaller size will give me higher self esteem. I don't want people to judge me by my weight. I don't want my weight to determine of someone will like me less, determine that I am less attractive, or determine that my weight would make them look bad (whether it's a company or person)
So, now that I have written this, my mind has wandered and I am sleepy. I can't even think straight. I have lost my train of thought so I really can't continue at this point. I do think I have made a major accomplishment by blogging my personal thoughts thus far. Good job.