Reality Hit Me in the Face

I am going to blog this with courage and transparency. I got on the scale yesterday and was mortified. 253 pounds. I am only 5’2. I gained 20 pounds since November 2008. I know what did it. For some stupid reason, I went overboard on sodas. I am not a soda drinker, but I had a massive craving for soda for about two months. I was drinking a soda or two every other day. My eating habits were also off the charts. I ate nothing but pizza, bread, and fast food. I knew I gained weight, but I didn’t think I was over 250 pounds. I went on a job interview a few weeks ago. I had to purchase a new outfit for the interview. I was shocked when I could not fit the size 18. I had to get a size 22. When I looked in the mirror, I saw someone I did not want to be. I saw ugliness and unhealthiness. I felt ugly. My bad eating habits really need to stop. I am putting myself at risk for heart failure, diabetes, earlier death, depression, and more. I need to stop making excuses for myself and stop letting my past experiences tell me that I am never going to be the person I want to be. It’s time to change. It’s time to transform.